The List: day 8

THE LIST:

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.






8. What are 5 passions you have?

 I think this depends on how you define passions.... but Ill try ...

pas·sion

[ pásh'n ] (noun) intense enthusiasm: a strong liking or enthusiasm for a subject or activity 
 
Lets use this definition........
.....in no particular order...

Fitness

 










Lately  I have really been trying to work on my health and wellness and I guess you could say it has become a passion of mine. I work out every morning before work and sometimes after work as well... I drink lots of water throughout the day instead of sodas or juices... I eat Heart healthy oatmeal for breakfast, fruit and veggies throughout the day, and a sensible dinner... I don't do fast food and recently I have quit buying stuff with preservatives or artificial crap in it. I buy whole grains instead of processed pastas and breads and am emptying the pantry of pre-made stuff.. I love to cook so this works out well for me and Phil loves to eat so I very rarely have to worry about there being leftovers to tempt me later... Its all making me feel more energized and healthy and I have actually lost a lot of weight... I reached my first goal (Down 40lbs and weighing less than Phil) Now I am onto my next goal of being 10lbs less than him hahah. I recently received from my mom a new pair of jeans size 9 and guess who can wear them now!!! This girl!!!! I have never been in a single digit in my life... the smallest I ever was in highschool was a 12 maybe a 10 once but that didnt last so guess who is excited about life and fitness being on the right track.... yep you guessed right, me again!!!




Education

 
 I have been in school since I was 4 years old and Im not about to stop now... Now that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel... So here I am... in graduate school at Miami working on my PhD in Microbiology... I I have always enjoyed school and I love to learn (even though oddly enough I don't like to study... and yes there is a big difference between learning and studying) Anyway my job I have right now is perfect for me at this stage in my life... Im learning how to do all the techniques that will make me a better scientist for the future and as I continue to learn I will become better or more fluent in the many aspects of science and I will probably never quit learning because science changes just as quickly as everything else in this world... there is always something bigger and better to learn and use...



Love (Friends/Family/Boy)

The people in my life have influenced me and shaped me into the person that I am... Without them I would be nothing and therefore they are my greatest passion... My family got me started and they are who I can continue to rely on no matter what the situation may bring... I love my parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and all of them.... They are my lifeline!!! I have made many great friends along the way... Above pictured are my two longest and dearest friends Corissa and Teresia... I have known them since T-ball and somehow or another we have stuck together all this time regardless of where we live or go or what life throws our way... I have many treasures from everywhere Ive been whether it be Ashland, Toledo, Erie, Angola, or now Oxford but they also shaped me into who I am.... And last but not least is the love of my life Philip who came into my life at a time when we really needed each other and we kinda saved each other in a way that we will be tied together for life and I love with him all my heart and soul... He is my better half and my reason to come home each night....


Reading



I love to read... and NO this does not go along with education... I love to read for reading... I love classics like Jane Eyre and Tom Sawyer but I also love the Harry Potter series, Hunger Games Series, Anything by Dan Brown, and now am involved with the sensual books of 50 Shades of Grey... my reading tastes change often and in large amounts but I still read... I love books and I love getting lost in them and forgetting my own reality for awhile... I love waking up from a dream where I was the main character in my latest read and I love that feeling when you just can't put it down.. the "just one more page... just one more chapter and ill go to bed" feeling... I love it all!!!


Being Outdoors






 I am super passionate about exploring the great outdoors and going new places and seeing new things and just soaking up the vitamin D... I can be happy laying on the beach in the sun just as easily as I can be happy hiking through the woods to see a waterfall and just recently I discovered I can be happy in a cave exploring new places underground that most people never see.... Its an invigorating and amazing feeling to do something you have never done.... In that same breath though I love being outdoors so much that I have no problem going into the yard to play catch or lay by the pool or go play frisbee golf with Phil at the park... There are so many different ways to love the outdoors and I am passionate about each and every one... I cant wait to see more of the world... hike new places... sleep outdoors... go to Antarctica for research... The world is one big adventure you just have to go with it and live it!!!


Peace and Love and God Bless

My list for 50 shades

So there has been all kinds of speculation about who should play the cast if 50 shades of grey really does become a movie...


Here are my choices for who I think would be amazing...

Christian Grey: Matt Bomer









Then There is Anastasia ....: Leighton Meester or Alexis Bledel

Katherine Kavenaugh: Blake Lively

 


 Elliot Grey : Channing Tatum

 


 Mia Grey: Lucy Hale




Jose: Jesse Metcalf

 



Ray (Ana's Dad): Billy Burke
 



Liela: Jena Malone






 Elena, aka Mrs. Robinson: Jenna Elfman






 Dr. Grace Trevelyan-Grey: Diane Lane





Taylor: The bodyguard: Jason Statham

 




 And thats my cast: take it or leave it hahaha

The list: Day 7

7. What is your dream job, and why?



hmmmmm I dont know to be honest.... I used to want to be a doctor and then when that changed I wanted to become a teacher at the university level but recently Ive been leaning more towards working in industry...
Though I may not know the exact job I have an idea of what would be perfect:

-flexible hours so that when I start a family I wont ever have to worry about missing a kids soccer game or ballet recital or whatever else the kid wants to participate in
-Good pay... I dont need to be a millionaire I just want to be able to support my family and give them everything that they need and occasionally what they want
- Close to home cause I hate driving hahaha
-I want to make a difference.... I want to have an impact or make a discovery or add to the world somehow

K thats all I have right now... let me think about it hahaha

The List: Day 6

6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?


This is a tough one because there are a couple up there at the top...

Leaving medical school is definitely up there..... That was probably the worst couple of months of my life.... and I definitely didn't handle it well.... I was just so unhappy for such a long time and it was exhausting... I constantly had circles under my eyes... I never slept... I started doing badly on exams because I couldn't focus or wouldn't focus... I hated going on rotations... I hit a deep depression and meds wouldn't help me at all... I would cry for no reason or someone would give me a reason... I hated Erie and the town and the fact that the sun refused to shine more than a couple times a year.... I broke up with one boyfriend just to get mistreated by the next... I ended up leaving and never going back.... I came home one night sobbing and told my parents I didn't want to do it anymore... I collapsed into bed for a few weeks and lost a few pounds... I had completely let myself down and had failed epically at something that I had wanted for my entire life... I had wanted to be a doctor since I was a little girl and I never imagined hating it so much... I wasn't ever a bad student in school and here I was on rotations refusing to study because I just needed to not think about everything that had happened throughout the day... I was miserable but yet I was miserable that I had given up... even if it was for the best I couldn't wrap my head around it... I couldn't accept that I had failed so miserably at something..... Eventually I got up put myself back together and made some new decisions... I took the GRE and applied to graduate schools within a week of their deadlines and I got a job waitressing to hold me over until graduate school started... I applied to 4 programs and got into 2 of them and obviously I decided on Miami... I still feel a pang of sadness occasionally when I think about what could have been but then I remember what could have been and some of  the sadness goes away...
The other tough one is a little too personal for today and Ive opted to not write about it so we are gonna stick with the above memory as the tough one...


God Bless~!

The List Day 5

THE LIST:

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.



 5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?




1) Phil
2) when an experiment goes right at work
3) getting on the scale to see a smaller number than last time
4) Butterfinger Blizzards or shamrock shakes haha
5) Going home to see my parents and siblings and nephews and nieces



Corny i know... deal with it hahaha

i know i already posted today but.....

The List Day 4

THE LIST:

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.



4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.

In no particular order

 1) Dont go to medical school... but still go to Miami in the fall of 2011 (Trust a man named Phil he is your soul mate and the one you've been waiting for)
2)  NO MATTER WHAT.... never betray a friend
3) Never date someone from walmart under any circumstances
4) Start working out more often.... it is totally worth it
5) Hug your siblings more and every chance you get
6) There is life after high school and the boys you loved then you wont love in the future and the things that mattered then wont matter later and the drama then will all disappear and will never matter again
7) Never trust a Wagner
8) Don't date people where you work
9) Take better care of  your parents and love them unconditionally and show them every chance you get
10) Convince your father not to trust his sisters and keep a better eye on Grandmas Will (sad but true)

The List Day 3

Describe your relationship with your parents

I think I have a great relationship with my parents... They are pretty darn amazing so that shouldn't surprise anyone too much.... They are incredible and have always been in my corner to back me up and support my decisions... Occasionally I would hide things from my mom just so she wouldn't worry but Dad always knew what was going on just in case.... Mom usually always finds out about things after the fact though because I never wanted to make it a habit to lie to her I just figured if I was doing something or going somewhere where she might worry the entire time, I would just wait til I got home to tell her what I did.... I know it sounds bad but I think most of us kids do it hahah... Its not really like much anymore though because I think we have a mutual understanding of things and I know I get mad when she doesn't tell me stuff because she doesn't want me to worry either hahahah so we have both gotten better at not hiding stuff.... I think Ill always be their little girl though and I am perfectly okay with that... I have the best parents in the whole world and they deserve the best.... I love them tons

The list: day 2

THE LIST:

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.


  Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears

1) Fear of failure.... I have no idea where I got that fear from but it is definitely my strongest one.... Ive had nightmares about this... I have never needed to be great at something just not fail at it.... Walking away from something is super difficult for me for this reason too which is why my leaving medical school was such a hard decision because i felt it was a failure on my part..... I have always wanted to be the woman who is strong and capable and could provide for her family if the time came she had to do it alone and thus my life has revolved around trying to be that woman... strong confident... good job.. able to support herself and others if necessary....  Failure at anything is petrifying to me... I dont mean little stuff like oh hey this experiment didnt work or hey you lost at parcheezi... i mean legit failure at things that matter.... scary as heck....

2) Millipedes/centipedes/.... I have no idea why they freak me out... I have no idea how it became a fear... i think its just the legs.... too many legs.... its just not natural.... bill engval used to have a joke about this him being scared of snakes because they dont have legs and thats just satanic.... i would argue the opposite as well... what kind of creature needs a thousand legs hahahah thats just wrong.... hahha

3) hmm I think storms but this one is weird because its not really for my own safety that they freak me out... so let me explain... growing up my mom was petrified of storms and every time the wind would blow super hard I was sent to the basement with my stuffed animals to sit under the pool table until it cleared up.. as i grew up and quit hiding under the table I developed a love of storms.... Rain helps me sleep lightning is gorgeous and thunder amazes me... whenever there was a tornado warning or siren dad and I would head outside to try to see where it was and see if we could spot it haha... Even now if a siren goes off I kinda want to go outside and check it out.... but the fear i have is for others which I know i got from my mom... For example... back last spring there was a day when there were all kinds of tornado sightings in this area... Phil had left to go take one of his last final exams and was at the Middletown campus.. I was watching the news and this was where a ton of tornadoes were sighted and I became a nervous nelly... i kept trying to reach him and was nervous when his test went late and I didnt calm down til I heard his voice on the phone saying he was on his way home... Its not just Phil though I do it when I hear storms are up north then i worry about my parents or siblings... Irrational? probably... will I change? No.....

The List: Day 1

THE LIST:

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.

1) I sing in the car... and the shower... and while cooking... ok I sing a lot
2) I hate mushrooms because I know they are fungal gonads not because of their taste or texture

3) I am a hopeless romantic but very rarely do I choose chick flicks or romance novels (with the exception of my current reading adventure)
4) I love scary movies but very few, if any, scare me (the first scary movie I ever watched was Pet Cemetery and I never got scared once... Some exorcism movies give me the heebie jeebies but no real fright)

5) I am terrified of Centipede/millipedes and I have been known to throw my shoes at them rather than step on them....

6) I one day hope to own a blue Corvette Stringray Convertible

7) I love the color blue and will pick it over most other colors if given the choice (in case you couldnt guess from my choice in cars hahahah)
8) I was born with 9 siblings, 8 still remain living
9) My mom gave birth to me when she was 46yrs old... statistically I should have had Downs Syndrome
10) Since January 1st I have lost 40+ lbs
 
11) I was voted most likely to succeed in high school... don't think I've gotten there yet
12) I miss playing softball and I don't miss basketball (I wasn't very good)
 
13) I am addicted to my camera and taking pictures (if you have me on facebook you know this and you also know that I am not very good at taking pictures haha but I do it anyway... it makes me happy)
14) I had a small issue with depression while I was still at LECOM but magically that went away went I came to Oxford..... (probably has some to do with Phil too ;)

15) I crack my knuckles  and my neck wayyyyyyyy too much'
16) I love disney movies and will often choose "Beauty and the Beast" or "Aladdin" over grown up television
 
17) I love being outdoors whether it is camping, hiking, sports, no matter what I love my Vitamin D
18) I had bangs until my sophomore year of college

19) I still own stuffed animals
20) My dream vacation would involve a very long trip across and thru Italy












And that is it for Day 1!!! Hope you enjoyed hahaha


God Bless

Ideas

Got this idea from Pinterest but I love it so Im doing it!!!
look in tomorrow for #1

To spice things up a little this month I will be posting something random about myself each day   The idea is to record different parts of my personality for my posterity, and I guess you get to know me better by default.  I think this'll be super fun and I invite you to play along! I would LOVE to read what you have to say about yourself in regards to these questions, and get to know you better, too.  This could potentially be very hilarious.



THE LIST:

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.

sad face

So we didnt get the house we were originally looking at. A little while back we found this cute little place in West hamilton and Phil ended up putting a bid in on it but come to find out there were multiple bids on it and we didnt get it... so back to the drawing board and back to house hunting...
We are bouncing back well though because last night we found 7 more with potential that we are hoping to look at soon. I guess the last one just wasn't meant to be but we will find the perfect one for us soon im sure!

So school started back up and the traffic and campus is awful... I really dont remember it being this bad last year... there are kids everywhere and they walk out in front of moving traffic like they have 9 lives to bounce back on.... its crazy.... parking is a mess too... I miss summer already... Its weird not teaching and not having classes though... I just go to work 9-5 everyday and its a little odd when I know everyone else in my year are still in class... I find it an odd sensation but Im not complaining... hopefully I can get my manuscript written soon with the extra free time.....

Antarctica is quickly approaching... where does the time go? where did the summer go?? I still have stuff I need to buy.... hopefully that gets done soon hahah

ok its a short update but i have to get back to work....
hopefully ill be better at updating now that it isnt summer hahah we'll see I guess

God bless!!

house update

Went to look at the house again last night… I think Phil likes it more every time he sees it haha
Im starting to see stuff too which makes me feel good

Last night we took his boss and his dad with us and the realtor and the guys seemed to really like it and didn’t have any real issues with it. Phil and his boss climbed up into the attic to look around and they took a look at absolutely every single thing you could look at haha. I found a few gems too.. so in the master bedroom there were two light switches very low on the wall and Phil realized that there were two small lights above them on the ceiling and it makes perfect sense that the bed goes in between the two switches and then there are reading lights for in bed… genius… I never would have thought to install something like that hahaha. The kitchen has a ton of cupboards and drawers which is especially awesome for me because my current kitchen is ridiculously small and I am excited to have enough room that I don’t have to cram my cupboards and storage room full.
I can already picture where things would go like the couch and kitchen table and stuff like that too which makes it feel more home like already… I mean I don’t want to get my hopes up yet because we haven’t even gotten to the point of putting a bid on it but still… I like this better than if he was liking something and bidding on something that I couldn’t picture at all or despised….
I can even picture the yard and where a little garden could go and stuff like that which means it isn’t just a material inside only kind of thing… The bathroom was recently remodeled too which is great because that will save us a ton of money… Oh and did I mention the wall to wall bookcases in the study? Guess who loves that!! Hahaha

Ok I know it’s a short update but back to work I must go….
God Bless

houses

So much to say…..

First off Antarctica deployment dates are now October 29- Dec 17^th which gives me an entire 12 extra days here at home but Im completely okay with that haha. I can’t believe how close it is getting!!!

Phil and I found a house that we like but we are still looking just in case… We are taking his uncle/boss and his dad to go see it tonight… It is a neat little place and Phil has ideas coming out of his ears as to what he wants to do with the place… We both have ideas actually but one step at a time. We are still looking at other houses but I can tell he is seriously considering this one in Hamilton… Its not a very far drive to work for either of us (almost exactly the same distance for both of us) and its definitely big enough for us. So who knows… maybe by this time next month or so we may have a place…..

Had a great weekend… Friday night Phil and I didn’t plan a whole lot but we had date night which was nice. I made dinner and we went and found a movie to rent and we just kinda chilled which was much needed I think. Saturday he had a family  reunion to go to so that took up most of our day but it was fun getting to visit with the family and meet a few more of them!  Sunday was play date day hahah After church we headed out to Hueston woods to try out the Frisbee Golf course there and go figure it is completely in the woods… Us trying to maneuver Frisbees around trees was pretty hysterical if I do say so myself. We surprisingly didn’t do too badly though…

Yayee for closing ceremonies and getting to see a Spice Girls reunion hahaha… Gotta love silly stuff like that. Im such a nerd…. 
Crazy night last night though… Cops knocked on the door after midnight because the people upstairs had an argument and the cops got called. I don’t think they knew which apartment but when I answered the door obviously unharmed and obviously just awakened (awesome hair and all) they looked a little surprised and I think they got the hint it wasn’t us hahaha
Something else to look forward to when we move… no more neighbors on the other side of our walls…. hahahah

continued

So my to be continued continues…..

Had an interesting thought last night… Phil and I were watching a part of a movie that involved the military and I asked him if he had ever considered enlisting… One of my great friends and past roomie is now a member of the military and is overseas currently. I am so proud of her and what she does but yet part of me wonders if I could ever handle something like that… Boot camp and being yelled at and forced to do pushups… etc…. I just don’t know if I have it in me to handle something like that…. Although I have to admit I consider enlisting every time I think about how much debt I am in from school…. I keep thinking about how they can help me pay for school and I was told by a recruiter that they would pay off my debt because it was acquired over three years of medical school in return for enlisting for 3-4 years depending on just how bad it was…. Its kind of a tempting offer but then again I wouldn’t start until after graduate school which already puts me at 30yrs old and then throw 4 years of military on top of that and we are talking 34yrs old and I would like to have already started a family by that point not just starting to settle down and make a life for myself…..  But yet again money is a scary thing and you have to have it to survive and I would like to have some to support this family that I want one day and getting rid of all that debt is still super tempting…. Can you tell I’ve put some thought into this?.....

Anyway The boss is back in town and you better believe she has assigned homework for us hahah Guess its back to the old grind and 9-5 days hahah Oh well it could be worse… at least I like my job and what Im doing which is always helpful…..

I can’t believe its already August…. It seems like 2012 is flying by and especially the summer portion of it…. I’m just not ready for winter yet…..

Edon Daze were this past weekend… kinda sad to have missed it… I used to love all the random town events like breakfast at the firehall… truck pulls… ice cream social by the band… basketball tourneys and kids games and sidewalk sales… you see everyone and their brother there and it was nice to be reminded just how small of  a town you come from occasionally… The fair will be in September and if Phil and I don’t find one to go to around here you better believe Im coming home for the Williams County Fair hahaha I love silly fun stuff like that….

Ok that’s enough for right now I need to get back to work….. just needed a minute in my own head but now its back to science I go…..

Life's happenings

I know I am doing a terrible job keeping everyone updated this summer but I'm trying I promise......

Here goes the newest thoughts and updates

So.... Where to begin... Work is going well.... I have been getting a lot accomplished which is always good... I feel productive anyway... The boss has been away for a month so it's been kind of lax hours which will make it hard to get back to normal next monday but I guess I gotta suck it up now that Im a big girl with a 9-5 job haha. I finished all the controls for the circadian experiment I was working on with my collaborator from Chicago. Now I just have to start writing the paper we are hoping to get published based on the results...  We have a new post-doc in the lab now and he is going to be working on real time PCR with me starting Monday so we will see how that goes... I am not taking classes this coming fall because of Antarctica but Im thinking about sitting in on a biochem just so I know whats going on when I take it in the spring.... Im such a weirdo... I might be doing my seminar this semester instead of next too since i can't take classes. Hopefully it goes better than last time and I dont sound like a conceited bitch which evidently is how I came across last time even though that wasn't my intentions.......

speaking of Antarctica... Im getting more and more excited the closer it gets but it also gets more and more terrifying... I dread spending all the money on the warm clothes but at least I should be able to use some of it for caving and hiking with Phil after I get back.... Thats another big part of the fear.... Leaving Phil.....I dont like the thought of it at all... Its not like Im expecting him to go running into the arms of another girl, I think I know him better than that but Im just not liking the idea of being away from him.... The more nights we hang out and the more mornings we wake up together the more I fear not waking up to him or seeing him when I get home at night... I love him so much and Im not looking forward to being away from him for 8 weeks.... We were talking about it the other night and he was getting sad and I couldn't help but change the subject because i just know that if I see him upset Im going to break down and lose it... Ive been so good about not crying or thinking sad things but if I saw him sad I wouldn't be able to hold back... I already know I will sob like a small child at the airport but Im going to put it off for as long as possible which knowing me means it will get harder and harder the closer we get to that time..... I hope he doesn't realize it was easy to live without me by the time I get back....

Which leads me to Phil and my's newest adventure..... house hunting.... He has set it in his mind that he wants to buy a house... We looked at a few in Oxford but they were crap so then he started looking into Ross and Hamilton ohio.... I dont mind living a little farther from Oxford since right now he is driving 40 minutes to work each day, it seems only fair that we split the distance.... Im not gonna lie though I will be sad to leave oxford commons... I love my little apartment and my huge closet and the work out center and the closeness to the school. But Im pretty sure I can adapt. The way I figure it Ill just claim the spare bedroom for my closet haha and as far as working out goes I think it might even make me more disciplined... I might start going to the gym at like 7:30 every morning so I can work out til 8:30 then still get to work by 9 since the gym is on campus and I doubt a ton of people will be there at that time in the morning. Then I can get my workout in before work and then when 5pm rolls around I can head home to spend the evening with my baby. Its kinda interesting though looking for a house... I mean its not exactly how I imagined it but Its not bad either... I dont know what I imagined really but I guess I always imagined moving directly into a house I was going to build a family in but that isn't really practical the more I think about it... Neither of us are in a financial position to buy a house like that... I never imagined searching for my "starter home" but thats definitely what we are doing. We even found a cute little two bedroom that would be a good size for us to get started.... I dont know if its the one we will decide upon or not but I can tell he is super excited about it which makes it easier for me to get excited about it... I kind of was hoping for a small dining room or a big enough kitchen for a 6 seater table just so i can have people over and cook for them but I don't know how realistic that is either.... Phil is amazing when it comes to construction and stuff like that so I have no doubt in my mind that  even if we bought some crappy little joint he could make it amazing for us... Really when I get to thinking about it I dont care where we live because I know that the two of us would make it a home.... We have enough love for each other that the home would be filled with love and no matter what it would be ours and we would make it perfect..... I think its more important for us to be together than where we are together at..... Any house could become a home... but I get more excited about house hunting the longer we do it.... If it hasn't already I bet something perfect will fall into our laps soon.... Or at least I hope so......

I can think of a few more topics but I need to get ready to leave for Phil's parents house... We are headed to a Sugarland concert down at Riverbend tonight so Ill try to update the rest this weekend....

God Bless