Thursday, June 21, 2012

Its been awhile, sorry

Hey all... I hope this post finds you well and happy and healthy and loving life!

Sorry it has been since the 5th when I last updated... You know how life goes.... It just is hard to keep up with sometimes... so lets see.... 
Nothing much happened with the end of that week. Phil's uncle had a birthday party that Friday so we got to see a lot of the family on his dad's side that night which was nice!
then on Saturday we went to a Detroit Tigers game in Cincinnati and of course Detroit won!!! it was funny because we were cheering for different teams and even the lady next to us got a kick out of watching us never cheering at the same times hahahah But my boys didnt let me down and we won!!! Verlander must have known I was coming because he shaved hahaha Phil was a good sport considering I oohed and aahhed over Justin Verlander for the entire game ahahha

I was pretty excited about this photo not gonna lie hahaha
We went to this church festival after the game and I got to see fireworks which of course made me happy and Phil won be two adorable bears at the carnival games hahah. Love him....

 That night was another concert night in our summer series so we headed to riverbend to see Jarrod Niemann, Chris young and Miranda Lambert

Jarrod is the bottom picture and I didn't have any awesome ones of Miranda to post but I have plenty pics of the concert on my facebook so feel free to check it out there! Some are very blurry... I really need a new camera and a few lessons on photography but hey I don't try to impress I just wanted the memories for one day when im too old to remember that Phil and I went to a million concerts in one summer hahahah maybe my lack of talent will improve with age and one of these days ill be awesome at photography hahahah (not holding my breath)

So anyway Concert was amazing and then on Saturday morning my mom and dad came to visit me!!! I was incredibly excited to have them here since they haven't seen the apartment all decorated and finished!!! It was so fun to show them the place and to have them stay with me. Phil got kicked out for a couple days but I figured he could stay with parents since it was fathers day weekend anyway hahaha. Saturday night we went to a party for Phil and his house and my parents met his ENTIRE family (both sides) and everyone seemed to get along great which is definitely a blessing!!! Will make the future much easier for us both hahah
Sunday morning I made a huge breakfast for us and we went to church. Dad was excited to see where I go to church here and I think he really liked it and the priest which was cool. I think he feels better about me living here now hahah Then sunday night I made a huge Fathers day feast with grilled malibu chicken, squash and zucchini, rice, and even an array of desserts for  him. Phil and his mom joined us and I thought dinner went well! Everyone said they liked it so maybe I am getting pretty good at this whole domestic housewife thing hahaha I love learning to cook though and I think i am getting much better at it now that I buy only fresh foods.
If it can go bad its good for you if it can't go bad in a week it isnt - awesome words to live by. So i dont eat any fast food and i avoid processed foods like its my job so now its a lot more fruits veggies and proteins.
Anyway I gotta get to work now
I will finish updating you more soon

peace and love

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


Have you ever looked at a fire and gotten lost in it.. Im not a pyro don't worry thats not where this post is going but seriously... I went to the lake a couple weekends back and as I was staring at the fire I kind of became lost into it mesmerized almost by the ever changing flames.... Last night I had a dream where I was engulfed in flames but it didn't hurt and I wasn't in pain and it was almost like I controlled it.. Like I knew I owned the flames that engulfed me... I think my mind has become more abstract as I become older because I have no doubt that this dream was actually meant to inspire me not to scare me... I had a rough weekend thinking about Lecom's graduation and where I could have been today... I looked at pictures of my friends in their doctor caps and gowns and was almost envious... but then I remembered something important... This is what I chose... I chose to let that life go and I chose to move forward... After I decided to give up my original dream of becoming  a doctor I could have lost myself I could have went back to mom and dad's to work at applebees for the rest of my life... I could have given up.. it would have been easy... but thats not what life is... Life is too short to just give up... you have to adapt just like the flames in a fire adapt to the wind and the wood and even the people around it... I knew Erie wasn't for me.. I was never happy there... I loved my friends but I hated the town, the school, the way I was, who I was, I wasn't healthy, I wasn't working out.... I wasn't even trying anymore... its like my body was telling me something and I refused to listen... Making the decision to give up and move on was one of the hardest things in my life but I did... I sucked it up accepted my mistakes and my bad decisions and applied to graduate school.... I always had a pull toward Miami and I never knew why... My sister and I were texting on Saturday and she is amazing, as always, and her comment to me was something like this "you had to move on, you had to give up its what led you here today... maybe you were meant for a PhD maybe you were just meant to find Phil but this was your purpose"...  This is amazingly true for me... I am happy here and more so that I have been living in any other town and I am happier with Phil than I have been with any other man and I am happy with my degree and my research and my job which is also all firsts for me..... I think my brain last night was reminding me "hey you adapted you changed you are fierce and strong and can withstand anything"  Who knows maybe it was just a dream composed of crazy things I saw throughout the day but Im going to be the optimist here and assume it was either God or my own strength inside me inspiring me to continue and reminding me that I wasn't meant to be in Erie this past weekend just like I wasn't meant to continue on that path. I have finally found who I am and who I am supposed to be and I love the look at the direction it is heading... I will continue to adapt and change and as I realize that with each passing year I am continuing to grow and change and thats ok... thats how it is meant to be... So get comfortable and enjoy my warmth cause this flame is no where near done!!!!

Friday, June 1, 2012

all kinds of happy

So a lot has been going on sorry for the lack of posts....
Maciek my collaborator from Chicago left last Saturday. We got so much accomplished and achieved so much data that I think we are turning it into two papers instead of one.. The idea of having my name on multiple publications astounds me. I am already starting to work on the manuscript for one of them and I can't believe this is all really happening. Talk about a happy girl!!
This week at work was pretty laid back because I have to go through one last long week of four hour samplings starting on monday. It will be especially long since I will be doing it by myself but I figure I can handle that just fine! Its only five days after all!
We got a new student for the summer and she seems pretty cool and it sounds like Im going to be working with her a lot. She is an undergrad from New York here on a research experience thing but she seems competent enough so it wont be too bad I dont think. The project she is helping me with should be pretty interesting too so Im not too worried

Went to Cumberland with Phil and his family last weekend. It was a great time and I got an awesome tan!! We went out on the boat all day Saturday and Sunday and I went tubing with Phil on Sunday.. HE IS CRAZY AWESOME... so while im holding on for dear life he is doing tricks and at one point decides to jump OVER me three times in a row.. it was crazy and his mom got it on video so hopefully I can show you guys at some point! My weird irrational fear of deep water wasnt bad either. We floated around together and fell off the tubes together and I didn't freak out which was good.. I just feel safer with Phil around I think.... Life is overall just better when he is around

Last night we went to a concert down in Riverbend and it was amazing. Thompson Square, Darius Rucker, and the AMAZING LADY ANTEBELLUM!!! right after Darius finished they postponed the show due to weather and Phil and I got drenched but we stuck around and by 10pm Lady A was back on stage singing. It was kind of fun to hang out dancing and holding each other and kissing each other in the rain. It amazes me what a great group they are. they sound just like they do on the radio when they are in real life which is impressive I think. Few groups are that good! I was very impressed and it was well worth the rain

Finished reading "the hunger games" in about 2-3 sittings. I barely started it one day then got well over half way the next day and finished it yesterday. it was good i have to admit and I am looking forward to buying the second and third ones to finish this weekend... Its nice reading for fun again...

K back to work now. Hope all is well with everyone
God Bless