Happy Easter everyone!!!!
Sorry it's been awhile since I;ve last updated... I have been super busy and it seems like the next couple weeks aren't going to get any better. So I thought I would update while watching Frozen planet tonight. Phil brought it to my attention that it has been awhile... so sorry.....
There is a lot to say actually and a lot has happened it seems like.
Bad news or good news first?
Bad news I guess... My sister had something awful happen to her but she is pulling though and although she lost her pregnancy she is doing well all things considered and I know they will have better luck next time... It is times like this though when I wish I lived closer to home... I just want to go home and crawl into bed with her and eat cadburry eggs and watch tv.....
Been kind of a crazy week. I had my first committee meeting... So committee's are formed for each student involving faculty that they think will be of the most use to them. These people determine what classes you will take, that you are working on, and when you get to take comps and start writing your thesis and stuff like that... essentially these are the people that decide your life. I think it went ok after I was drilled for an hour but they agreed to to let me not take classes next semester but yet still take comps on time... Life should be ok over all... I can't wait to go to Antarctica but I as it gets closer I realize just how much I am going to miss Phil and being around him everyday... Its funny how addicted you can get to a person... ok so addicted probably isn't a good word but hopefully you know what I mean... speaking of which
ANNE!!!! I love you and i hope things are going well and aren't letting your mind get the best of you... You are an amazing woman and you deserve all the joy you are receiving so soak it up and love it because you deserve to be happy and loved....
So Today was Easter... I thought Id be super bummed not being with my family and sure enough I missed them a ton and thought about them all day but the weekend was pretty amazing...
Saturday night was grandma Teufel's birthday so there was a party at Phil's aunts house. I pretty much met most of his family on his dad's side in an hour hahaha... Went out that night with the immediate family which of course was fun it was nice to meet the members of his family who had facebooked me way back when we started dating.... Today was church with his parents and his sister and that was interesting... It was so much different from what I am used to but not necessarily in a bad way... just different... made me miss home... kinda wished I was going to church with dad and I hoped someone would be home to go with him.... Then we went back to his house and his awesome mom had a basket for me but of course all of our baskets were hidden and we had to go find them... I haven't done that in years so it was interesting and fun and kinda crazy... Phil's dad hid his up the flag pole which was beyond hysterical... Ill post pictures soon!! Then after breakfast and then after baskets were found it was time for a short nap before heading to his mom's side of the family Easter... I met about half of his mom's family at their Easter dinner and it was a lot of fun.. Everyone on both sides were super sweet and nice and easy to talk to and get along with... We were joking about how big our future events would be with both of us having such huge families... I love it though... I know we will never have to worry about family or being loved!
So big stuff coming up soon...I have a presentation tomorrow and thursday and then next week is scary week.... April 17th is my hour long seminar to the micro department then i have a presentation in ecology on wednesday and then that weekend is my first poster presentation at proctor and gamble in cincinnati.... The entire week I feel like I will be a nervous wreck..... Im just going to sleep all day that Sunday afterward hahahaha
Ok this is getting long and its way past my bedtime so Im going to say goodnight and I hope you all have an amazing week and that your Easter was amazing as well... He has Risen!!!
God Bless!!!
When plan B became plan A and life got good again
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Giving up..... Not just for Lent
ere is a list of 15 things which, if you give up on them, will make your life a lot easier and much, much happier. We hold on to so many things that cause us a great deal of pain, stress and suffering – and instead of letting them all go, instead of allowing ourselves to be stress free and happy – we cling on to them. Not anymore. Starting today we will give up on all those things that no longer serve us, and we will embrace change. Ready? Here we go:
1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?” Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?
2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.
“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu
3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.
4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.
“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle
5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!
“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle
6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.
7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.
8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.
9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell
10. Give up labels. Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer
11. Give up on your fears. Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only fear we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt
12. Give up your excuses. Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.
13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.
14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another, attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.
15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations. Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves. You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.
1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?” Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?
2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.
“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu
3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.
4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.
“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle
5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!
“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle
6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.
7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.
8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.
9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell
10. Give up labels. Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer
11. Give up on your fears. Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only fear we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt
12. Give up your excuses. Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.
13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.
14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another, attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.
15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations. Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves. You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
My demolition expert
If a girl surrounds herself with a wall it is because each brick was placed there one by one... lie by lie... heartbreak by heartbreak... pain after pain... It isn't always from a man, sometimes it is from a friend, a family member, a loss, a hurt, a memory, a scar.... regardless the wall gets built and she remains... ready for someone to come by and take down her wall brick by brick... smile by smile... truth by truth... love by love... hug by hug... until finally nothing remains and she can walk freely into the sunshine for the first time in a long while....
It takes great love to do this... from both sides....
It takes love to spend the time and work and effort to remove the wall
it takes great trust to let the wall come down.... scared and worried but hoping and loving... it takes great strength from both partners until finally they are truly together and can hold each other fully.....
Occasionally both partners have this wall..... and they work together..... removing a brick of his and a brick of hers until both walls are removed.... this can be extremely difficult because both the partners have been hurt but if he sees she loves him and he sees that he can trust her and he sees that she is not like the rest then he too can have the courage to let her break apart his wall... his barrier...
After too many lies... heartbreaks... deaths... and hard times... I'm finally seeing the sunshine...
A great quote said "To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides"
It is already a beautiful sunrise and I see a beautiful clear day dawning before me....
xoxo to my demolition expert who is freeing me from my past and allowing me to do the same for him... I love you
It takes great love to do this... from both sides....
It takes love to spend the time and work and effort to remove the wall
it takes great trust to let the wall come down.... scared and worried but hoping and loving... it takes great strength from both partners until finally they are truly together and can hold each other fully.....
Occasionally both partners have this wall..... and they work together..... removing a brick of his and a brick of hers until both walls are removed.... this can be extremely difficult because both the partners have been hurt but if he sees she loves him and he sees that he can trust her and he sees that she is not like the rest then he too can have the courage to let her break apart his wall... his barrier...
After too many lies... heartbreaks... deaths... and hard times... I'm finally seeing the sunshine...
A great quote said "To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides"
It is already a beautiful sunrise and I see a beautiful clear day dawning before me....
xoxo to my demolition expert who is freeing me from my past and allowing me to do the same for him... I love you
Monday, March 26, 2012
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Diet end and Antarctica
So the diet came to its week's end and although it said lose about 10 lbs I lost 5 which I guess is still good because I have been losing about 2 a week on average (thats what the experts say is a good amount to lose per week to not gain it back because evidently more than 5 a week and your body rebounds and you put it back on more easily) so anyway I guess that's ok but definitely not worth the weird food i had to eat but I came to a few conclusions and revelations
Rather than eating a carb loaded breakfast cereal Im going to start eating yogurt and fruit for breakfast. I am going to quit buying breads so they aren't in the house at all.. Still no fast food but I never crave that anyway with the exception of an occasional ice cream. My lunch will remain the same as it has been: all fruits and veggies. and then for dinner Im going to quit having a lot of potatoes and pasta in the house. Ill keep some because every once in awhile I do really crave pasta but I figure if there is less then I wont have it as often. Also I am going to quit buying anything boxed and am going to continue actually cooking... pinterest has a lot of good recipes Ive been wanting to try anyway so I don't see a problem with this... I think cutting out the big carbs will help me continue to lose weight as long as I keep going with my running regimen.
so I got my first email from the Antarctica field season set up people which is super exciting. they needed all my passport info and stuff like that.... it feels good to actually be preparing for this trip rather than just talking about it... October 20th to Dec 21st... cutting it a little close for Christmas but as long as I get home Ill be happy!! Note to self: Buy presents early.... or give mom money and have her do it hahah
Working all weekend while Phil is caving... its super peaceful knowing Im the only one in the lab and occasionally the only one in the building... Ive been getting a lot done especially work on my seminar... yayee for productivity......
So funny story last night I worked until almost 7 and went home and wanted to work out so I went to the work out center in my complex and got on the treadmill... A movie I have been wanting to see had just come on and I got so interested in watching it I jogged and walked through the whole thing... my treadmill even shut off on me once because it doesnt go for over 100 minutes how funny is that? maybe i should watch movies on the treadmill more often lol
Rather than eating a carb loaded breakfast cereal Im going to start eating yogurt and fruit for breakfast. I am going to quit buying breads so they aren't in the house at all.. Still no fast food but I never crave that anyway with the exception of an occasional ice cream. My lunch will remain the same as it has been: all fruits and veggies. and then for dinner Im going to quit having a lot of potatoes and pasta in the house. Ill keep some because every once in awhile I do really crave pasta but I figure if there is less then I wont have it as often. Also I am going to quit buying anything boxed and am going to continue actually cooking... pinterest has a lot of good recipes Ive been wanting to try anyway so I don't see a problem with this... I think cutting out the big carbs will help me continue to lose weight as long as I keep going with my running regimen.
so I got my first email from the Antarctica field season set up people which is super exciting. they needed all my passport info and stuff like that.... it feels good to actually be preparing for this trip rather than just talking about it... October 20th to Dec 21st... cutting it a little close for Christmas but as long as I get home Ill be happy!! Note to self: Buy presents early.... or give mom money and have her do it hahah
Working all weekend while Phil is caving... its super peaceful knowing Im the only one in the lab and occasionally the only one in the building... Ive been getting a lot done especially work on my seminar... yayee for productivity......
So funny story last night I worked until almost 7 and went home and wanted to work out so I went to the work out center in my complex and got on the treadmill... A movie I have been wanting to see had just come on and I got so interested in watching it I jogged and walked through the whole thing... my treadmill even shut off on me once because it doesnt go for over 100 minutes how funny is that? maybe i should watch movies on the treadmill more often lol
Friday, March 23, 2012
things that make me happy
My family
My friends
My boyfriend
the other side of the pillow
that moment when the lights dim and everything is quiet right before a big show
finishing a good book
the last day of a semester
the first kiss
seeing the number on the scale being lower than the last time i checked
sunshine
being outside
cake batter icecream
the first snow of the year
Christmas
Birthdays
puppies and kittens
dressing up for fun
hitting every green light while driving through town
seeing my nieces and nephews
babies
naptime on a sunday with my hunny
getting a letter in the mail
receiving a care package
helping others
making others smile
pirate jokes
road trips
freshly washed sheets
calla lillies
trying on something that fits perfect the first time
when experiments work
coloring
when a bible verse or sermon feels like its directed at me
good movies
singing loudly in the car
when the steelers or tigers win
clearance sales
the color blue
pinterest
and a million other things that I could name but would take too long to write hahah
My friends
My boyfriend
the other side of the pillow
that moment when the lights dim and everything is quiet right before a big show
finishing a good book
the last day of a semester
the first kiss
seeing the number on the scale being lower than the last time i checked
sunshine
being outside
cake batter icecream
the first snow of the year
Christmas
Birthdays
puppies and kittens
dressing up for fun
hitting every green light while driving through town
seeing my nieces and nephews
babies
naptime on a sunday with my hunny
getting a letter in the mail
receiving a care package
helping others
making others smile
pirate jokes
road trips
freshly washed sheets
calla lillies
trying on something that fits perfect the first time
when experiments work
coloring
when a bible verse or sermon feels like its directed at me
good movies
singing loudly in the car
when the steelers or tigers win
clearance sales
the color blue
and a million other things that I could name but would take too long to write hahah
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Day 4
Today was a weird day in the diet cleanse world..... Beef and Tomatoes.. I took tomatoes for lunch how weird is that.... At least i get all my veggies back tomorrow!!! yummy!!! only two days left.... thank goodness hahah
Found out today that I am presenting my first science poster in April and I had to write the abstract today because it has to be submitted this week. Pretty exciting to think my research will be up in black and white for everyone to see and read about....
Gradually getting stuff done.... more keeps getting added but im making progress
Found a cool poster today
Thought it was neat enough to share....
On another note: My mom made my day today.. I knew she had to send me some insurance stuff but sent the insurance stuff in a box filled with a new skirt, new tank top, new jewelry and even a bottle of perfume... I love my parents.... they kinda sorta rule!!! I love them.... she always knows how to make me smile!
Phil and I have all kinds of big plans coming up
Cirque Du Soleil next weekend and then he graduates in May!!
Then this summer we got this megaticket thing for seven concerts
1) Brad Paisley and the Band Perry
2) Lady Antebellum, Darius Rucker and Thompson Square
3) Miranda Lambert, Chris Young, Jerrod Niemann
4) Rascall Flatts, Little big town, and Eli young band
5) Toby Keith and Brantley Gilbert
6) Sugarland
7) Jason Aldean and Luke Bryan
My summer is gonna be full of great music and fun!!! Can't wait
And this one is for my hunny
Peace and Love
xoxoxoxo
Found out today that I am presenting my first science poster in April and I had to write the abstract today because it has to be submitted this week. Pretty exciting to think my research will be up in black and white for everyone to see and read about....
Gradually getting stuff done.... more keeps getting added but im making progress
Found a cool poster today
On another note: My mom made my day today.. I knew she had to send me some insurance stuff but sent the insurance stuff in a box filled with a new skirt, new tank top, new jewelry and even a bottle of perfume... I love my parents.... they kinda sorta rule!!! I love them.... she always knows how to make me smile!
Phil and I have all kinds of big plans coming up
Cirque Du Soleil next weekend and then he graduates in May!!
Then this summer we got this megaticket thing for seven concerts
1) Brad Paisley and the Band Perry
2) Lady Antebellum, Darius Rucker and Thompson Square
3) Miranda Lambert, Chris Young, Jerrod Niemann
4) Rascall Flatts, Little big town, and Eli young band
5) Toby Keith and Brantley Gilbert
6) Sugarland
7) Jason Aldean and Luke Bryan
My summer is gonna be full of great music and fun!!! Can't wait
And this one is for my hunny
Peace and Love
xoxoxoxo
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